"So lately, I've been stressing about my hair. To be honest, I kind of hate it. I can't really do much with it. I know. I know. "Natural Hair is so versatile." Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. My problem is that my hair is too short for me. It's definitely growing because I keep it healthy, you know what I'm saying. I just can't find the right go to hairstyle for me yet at this state."
Does that sound familiar? Good, because it should. I wrote this intro for a post a month ago. Funfact: I still feel the same way.
I wish I would have transitioned longer, actually until I reached my goal length which is shoulder length when curly. My hair is currently like right above my collar bone. The only proof I have that my hair is growing is that I can finally put it into a high puff.
However, I really do miss the ease of my hair when straight. So, I recently straightened it. It was seen in my last post. It was super frizzy and way too thick for me and my lazyness, so I only straightened half of it. I also noticed that my hair was really uneven which is another reason I didn't finish it.
Either way, I don't like my hair currently, straight or curly. Now, I've never thought about getting a relaxer again, but I have thought about getting my hair professionally straightened.
I know I "shouldn't" put heat on my hair, and blah, blah, blah, but I don't care. It's about me being comfortable with myself and I'm not comfortable with short, uneven, curly hair.
- This is a portion of a recent post on my fashion and beauty blog. Since this post, my thoughts have not changed.
I'm just not comfortable with my natural short hair. I know this and have accepted this. I know people will have a problem with that statement, but you don't have to accept it because you aren't dealing with this problem. This is a significant part of my own personal self-love journey. I need to embrace this negative part and turn it into a positive; how I deal with this insecurity is the most important part not whether or not I have it. Now, I could either just wear my hair out until I am comfortable or keep protective styles until it's at a length that I am actually comfortable with.
I knew the moment I bc’d, I
regretted it. I wish I never did it. But, it was done and I tried to embrace it but couldn’t. Everybody
says that the BC will be liberating, but what they fail to tell you is that YOU HAVE TO BE READY. Not
everyone is going to be comfortable with a short length. That’s ok. So, for everyone who
felt hideous, insecure, out of place, or even guilty for not feeling a certain way, you’re
not alone. It’s ok. So, if you need to were a wig, get extensions, braids/twists, whatever, until
you’re comfortable with how YOU look, please do it. Even if you want to relax your
hair again, if that’s what you feel you need to do, do it. You can have healthy hair and be
relaxed. This is your journey. Don’t let anyone tell you how it’s supposed to go because they’re
not walking on the same path you are. They don’t have the same potholes and rocks and debri
blocking their way. You do what you need to.
